This is about 2018 and what it was for all of us.
Wow y’all what a horrible, emotional, and challenging year. I know we all said this last year but this by far was the worst year of my life. More downs than ups, heart breaks, and I mean heartbreaks in all forms. From family, friends, significant others, y’all get it.. It was just failed relationships everywhere.
This leads me to the title of my blog “broken crayons still color”. Obviously you get what that means but let me take it a little more in depth.
2018 was hard and don’t believe it if you don’t want to but the start of 2019 isn’t gonna be much different. That’s where we fuck up. We think new year, new everything and unfortunately that isn’t the case. We still struggling, relationships still broken, still depressed. New year, same shit going on..
Now listen to this; you are the crayon, you are whats broken… but just because you might be broken and broken can be in any form-broke, depressed, no job, no motivation, heart broken, etc. It’s up to you to figure out how you are broken but keep in the back of your head that yes you may be broken but you are still capable of working! You can still change the situation you are in. Lets use these broken crayons to color a pretty picture. Remember tho the crayons are broken so this picture isn’t gonna be colored overnight, its gonna take some time. JUST BE PATIENT.
Lets do this whole new years resolution a lil different. By that I mean that we always plan to be different in the beginning of the new year..why tho? I guess because its a new year right? But who even taught us that? We all know nothing changes over night. Well let me not be negative Nancy because some things can in fact change overnight but I feel like majority of the time when shit changes overnight it isn’t anything to be looking forward to.
Use this year as a refresher on what we’ve been trying to work on all this time. Revisit those old failed new years resolutions and see what you can tap into and work on being great by the END of the year. Not the beginning. We tend to get discouraged when things don’t work out that we give up way too fast but we don’t realize that you can’t force change on things that just aren’t ready to be changed. Don’t try to come up with a whole new lifestyle just because its the start of a new year. You are setting yourself up for failure. Trust me, I know. I struggled with it for years.
Now when someone asks what my new years resolution is, I simply let them know I don’t really have one. I’m still working on trying to be the best version of me, still trying my best to accomplish goals I’ve had for years.
Long story short, I just want to be better than I was yesterday and do more than I did yesterday.
Let’s tackle 2019 a lil different than we have the years prior. Cheers to a new year and God Bless!